Uranus Trine Chiron

Another didn't know this was happening day except I feel like shit.

This has been going on for a year now and bears no resemblance whatsoever to what astrodienst thinks I should be feeling.

No riding the crest of a wave here, just trying to summon up the energy to do the simplest things that leave me feeling exhausted. My 90-day streak in Duolingo has long gone and sometimes I manage a day, promptly miss two days, do a day, miss three—no ambition, no desire, no nothing. 

Sun Sextile Uranus and...

 ...Venus conjunct Venus  

Yesterday: OK so I have an appointment with the surgeon to discuss my upcoming right hip transplant and only wait an hour to be seen.

We get into a discussion about what hurts and I say my right knee does, I think, but I can't really tell where the pain is coming from, just that it's difficult to walk. The pain in your knee may well be received pain from the hip, says the surgeon. We look at an X-ray of my hip and even I can see the difference between the ball in the socket of my left hip and the big mess on the other side. 

We're here to treat pain, the surgeon says, so you should have your knee replaced first, but the insurance company won't pay for two things in one visit so you'll have to come back next week to get your knee X-rayed. (My GP had sent me to the hospital a month ago for the hip X-ray.)

But the hip replacement is so much easier, I say, everyone says that. No it's not, says the surgeon. They're both serious surgeries. I make an appointment for the knee X-ray next week and on the way home wonder what it will be like when my knee is "OK" after the surgery and I'll have  excruciating pain because of the destroyed hip. 

In spite of all this a friend I haven't seen for ages comes over in the afternoon and we have a brilliant game of UpWords. 

Sun Trine Frigging Pluto

Written on 3/28.

Of course it's Sun Trine Pluto—how can a day like this NOT be Sun trine Pluto—and here is the amazing thing. I didn't know. 

Added 3/30: I no longer pay the attention I once did to daily transits. 

A bit of a breakthrough - living life instead of making notes on it.  

Will describe later. 

Yesterday's Mercury Square Uranus

It was late afternoon when I'd recovered from the work crew being here all week and finally being left to my own devices that I went out to water the garden—neglected while the crew were here as whatever had been on the front porch was scattered all over the place and I couldn't water without hitting something I shouldn't—and discovered my only two months old wonderful make my life easier watering system had been wound incorrectly with the hose not all inside the winding wheel so that it was sticking and not able to unwind properly and all the frustrations of the past three months came to the surface and I completely lost my temper.

I suppose it's proof of my new found maturity (?) that after a minute of cursing and swearing I came back inside, did something else for an hour, went back out, tried to unstick it, swore a bit more, came in for another hour and when I went back for the third time I was able to get it unstuck—not easy— and water the garden, discovering as I did so the havoc the crew had wrought on many of my plants and not immediately picking up the phone and complaining to the crew supervisor. 

I still haven't done that, but I shall, as the nozzle on the hose is covered with stucco gunk I can't get off and when I mentioned this earlier in the week I'd been promised a new nozzle, forgotten about when I paid the final bill yesterday. 

I'm daring to think that this sudden renewal of the ability to write coherent sentences is a good thing. 

Saturn Square Saturn exact and Venus Square the MC....

.....and later in the day Mercury square Uranus.

I am driving myself around the bend waiting for these workmen to be gone. I can't just accept that they're here on the front porch and then the back patio and they've been here for almost two weeks now and I'm allowing myself to be driven crazy.

First Physical Therapy appointment this morning at 8 and I came straight back to the house and have been here ever since. I OUGHT to take trash into town and haven't done it, I OUGHT to do this and OUGHT to do the other and I just sit here in the little back bedroom and indulge my Trump Derangement Syndrome and watch Pondering Politics and Adam Mockler and all the rest saying and showing that Trump is a crazy old man intent on destroying this country and just wish that this crew would pack up all their stuff and be gone. 

Note from yesterday: Somewhere around early afternoon yesterday I was able to rouse myself and put a load of laundry in. Ten minutes after that a plumber appeared and said he had to shut off the water for a bit. I pointed him to the well house, lifted the lid of the washing machine and switched it off.

Thirty minutes later he completed his job, which will make it much easier for me to attach a hose to the outside faucet, turned the water back on and left. I went to restart the laundry that had been sitting in the tub for 30 minutes and it wouldn't turn on. Several attempts but would not turn on. Called plumber, asked him to come back and when he had showed him how the machine wouldn't turn on. He shut the lid and immediately my sheets began swishing around in soapy water and I felt like the biggest idiot of all time. 

I have no business living in a house. 

But this is what it looks like with the horrible pink wall gone. 

And of course the Moon is in the Fourth today -

"This is a good time to retire by yourself to your own private place. You seek and need comfort from the demands of the outside world, and having a pleasant relaxing time at home is probably the best way to accomplish this."

 

So Now the Sun's with Saturn Opposing Saturn

This really is like a living nightmare. And just as I'm about to to go to talk about this morning - workmen everywhere, me stuck in the little back room with lousy Internet and banging noises all over the place and the guys go off for lunch and I think it's safe to put a load of laundry in and I do and then a plumber arrives and tells me has to shut the water off - as I climb back on to the bed a text comes telling me one of the people I used to play tennis with has died, "they think about four days ago".

Chilling words for them of us what live alone. 

The poking and scraping outside has started again. Plumber seems to have left. No idea whether he turned the water on again or not. 

Should I leave this open to chronicle the future events of the day or accept reality and acknowledge I probably won't write anything else and just "publish"?

4:21pm

OK, my solitary reader, whomever you might be (and thank you), have not read this post and so I can add to it instead of having to do a whole new post under the same aspects. If I had any discipline I could set a time for posting and do it every day to the hour. to the hour.  I don't.

My (intercepted) Aries Sun in the Twelfth has never liked having workmen at the house so of course now the Sun has joined up with Saturn there are workmen swarming all over the place and I'm imprisoned in the little back bedroom at LWH where there's lousy Internet. There's lousy Internet all over the house come to think of it but it's the worst here.

Saturn Square Saturn and Opposed to Neptune

So this is supposed to be the roughest time of all, it seems, from the 13th of March or so till the first few days of April. No argument from me.

Just wrote three more paras that the lousy Internet didn't save.