Venus Square Venus ......

 ....and I didn't overeat.

Jessie came over.

Jupiter in the Fourth

Jupiter Opposed to the Midheaven

He's been down there for ages but as the angle began to perfect he almost outdid himself for four or five days.  

The man parking his rig in the driveway in exchange for yard work left because it's too noisy, but he'd done all the stuff I didn't want to do and I promptly managed to find an amazing can-do-anything woman who'll do the rest and also a bunch of other stuff. 

There's loads more but I just got back from washing dog bowls at High Desert as another two and a half hours of community service and I'm starving. 

Mercury sextile Neptune

Dreaminess, they call this, so that might be why my therapy appointment got a bit animated, while I tried to explain to Dr. P exactly what the last three years have been like. 

Tension, there's tension she hadn't seen before, she said, and of course there's tension, I said, waving around the two pieces of paper filled with misery. 

And the first day of dark at five o'clock and it's almost nine and I'm still up writing this. Loads of backtracking to do. 

Sun Trine Saturn

This got off to an unexpected start with a neighbor taking me and an old falling-apart wicker chair to the dump and then a trip to Walmart where I got big paper bowls (no water) and an external hard drive I've needed for months as the old one died. 

Wrote that on 10/28 and that's as far as it got. Not a clue what happened the rest of the day.   My old attachment to astrology, started in 1996 with Michael Lutin's workshop on the Nodes, has gone, to put it mildly, and I wonder if I'll ever get it back.

I wonder sometimes if I'll ever get anything back (what did I have?) after my almost year of having a device in my car which for nine months made it impossible for me to drive as I couldn't get the car started, and now even trying to describe what that year has been like is impossible, or rather it's so difficult I can't even be bothered to make the attempt.  Depressed, anyone?